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Coin operated boy…

Coin operated boy
Sitting on the shelf he is just a toy
But i turn him on and he comes to life
Automatic joy
That is why i want a coin operated boy

I’ve always felt like a coin operated boy, waiting to be someone else’s toy.  I have friends who believe in having a rich inner life where they ponder things which will never come to be.  For me, I’d rather be in your thrall, as you steal away my thoughts of all but what you will of me.  I long for you to lead me down the path to bliss, my eyes shrouded, forced to follow your will and whim, forced to trust you, until all I can wish for is that trust, and for you to take my trembling hand as we join to move forward together.

Fingers feel.
Eyes close.
Breath catches in the throat…
And I explore what it means to be… this.

I write this with the goal to make men like myself better understood.  I feel passionately about access to knowledge and education about one’s inner self, and wished only or more when I was coming up as a young submissive.  I mostly write for that young man, the frightened, curious young submissive with a head full of dreams and hormones full of urges I couldn’t begin to understand.  Truth be told, if this is done right it will help others understand their submissive boys as well.  Secondary goal is secondary, yet still important, still something I will be thinking about.

Won’t you join me?  I think the journey will be worthwhile.

Coin Operated Boy

  • Cobalt Blue

    I’m listening, and curious. I’ve felt this way for a long time, too…but never known how to get there. All I can do is look in at other’s experiences and wonder. I’ve had many false starts and don’t even know where to start anymore. 
    I guess I’m in the ‘ponder things that will never be’ category, but I also believe in going as far as possible towards those things, in the hopes to meeting reality and fantasy somewhere in the middle.